THE ANSWER IS MOST DEFINITELY "B"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Point Is......... She's Missing THE POINT.

I think I'm now learning to be friends with myself and not just that mean, horrible, critical voice that comes in to break up all the "La la laaaaa!" (I think I called this voice "The Fat Devil" earlier on in this blog... great, let's tag it... done!) OK, so What does she mean? "you" ask? Well... allow me to explain. *She clasps her hands together*

I'm psychoanalysing myself here, so bear with me. This is what occurs in the noggen, but I'm here because the brain occasionally gets too crowded. Time to release some of the pressure. Look back at my more recent posts. Hold on, I'll do the same, time to refresh the control centre.

Done. I just looked at my posts over the last 2 weeks and I noticed something simple that has been eluding me for years. This is the way I treat myself: I give something good, so I take something else away.  That's not nice, is it? I just thought how would I look if every time I gave someone a present, I then stole something from them? What if everytime I gave my child something positive like encouragement, I took a teddy bear away? How horrible of a person would I be?  Well, I am that person. In a way.

I haven't succeeded at achieving my health goals for all these years because I'm NOT CONSISTENT enough. I do something good i.e. workout and then I eat a bunch of crap. Or, I eat really well, but then I beat myself up for not losing a ridiculous amount of weight. Or, I'm working out just fine, eating OK, but not giving myself the credit. You get the picture, don't you?

This is sabotage. This is war with a small "w" because its somewhat like an ambiguous war like the "war on drugs" ... Where is this war taking place? Who is the enemy? Was that just a battle or a drill?

Back to this POINT. So. The point is to be healthy and to "take care" isn't it? The point is not to drool every time the shrill digital voice of my scale rings out a lower number. The point is to feel comfortable in my skin, loose in my clothes, strong in my spirit, and most importantly, to become a mom.

Let me say this another way to myself (just as I would if I felt a friend was totally not getting a point I was trying to make):

Self?

Yes?

What would make you happier? 

A) You feel like crap, your clothes are tight, you have no energy, no desire, and no zest! but Scale Vixen said, "Hello. Your weight is 15 stone 3.6 lbs."

Or...

B) You feel great! Your clothes are getting looser! You're going to the gym! You're eating healthy food (and you balance this well with foods to eat on "occasion"!) You have energy! People say you look great! You feel smaller! You are tighter! and You have no idea what Scale Vixen would say because you don't need that wench to tell you how you feel... ? 
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EDITORS NOTE: WHERE THE BLEEDING HECK HAS THE SPELL CHECK BUTTON GONE?!! HELLLPPPP!!! I HATE MAKING SPELLING ERRORS AND I'M TRAPPED IN THE DIVIDE BETWEEN BLIGHTY AND YANKEE, WHICH MEANS I'VE FORGOTTEN HOW TO SPELL. SORRY FOR ANY ERRORS I MAY NOT HAVE PICKED UP ON, BOTH OF THE AMERICAN AND BRITISH PERSUASIONS.